I decided to start blogging this, as I know that it wasnt easy and I would like to keep a blog to keep me going. Hopefully by end of 3 years, when I review my blog and is worth it! Is been in my mind since last year January, after I gotta my Master degree, I will definitely wanna pursuit my phD. And I got pregnant soon after that. I decided to take a year break for pregnancy and continue after delivery this year January.
I'm now a full time working researcher in industrial and a full time mama for my 8 months old. Been struggling to attempt phD since early this year, at first couldn't find a right supervisor, and 2 months ago managed to hunt for one. Ideally is to use company project as phD and I have kill 2 birds with a same stone, unfortunately things are not always turn out as what you want. After talking to Prof Cheong, he agreed that taking a project from the supervisor is feasible, and i went ahead. Then, there are more, is not as simple as just a phD. The interview between supervisor and his boss wasn't easy, a lot of grilled asked in a smiley way but is a tough and throw you down.
After been thinking for weeks, asked people around, cracking on the new schedule (do not wish to comprise too much of baby time yet have to pinch out for phD and work), tried to get support from family (siblings are okay but not sure bout mom) and in laws (dont buy it) and most importantly hubby. He told me "If this is your dream, just go ahead". And, I decided to go ahead. Take the challenge to work, to do a phD, and to take care of my baby at the same time. The stressful years gonna last for 3 years. Sleep even lesser now, jump out from my comfort zone, is doable, and I can definitely do it!
Another reason to start up this blog as I googled through the net, many are dealing with phD and baby, but not work, phD, and baby. I decided to record down the path, for any lady out there who are doing the same as what Im going to do, at least we have support on each other, there is someone who can understand you. Is not easy when you are an exclusively breastfeeding mama as well. With all the challenges, I want to tell myself dont be afraid and just do it! The hardship just gonna take few years and after that, you can live the life you want to advance your career and holding your little one's hand to your convocation, and kiss him on his forehead and tell him that mama did it, because of you.
I can't wait the day to arrive. A short letter to myself in 3 years time, to kiss my little one on his forehead during my convocation.
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